Something I'm Hiding

We all have secrets.  There are things about us that very few people, if any, know about us.  We keep those things to ourselves for a variety of reasons.  Usually it is because we are unsure how people around us will react to the information.  I am usually a very personable individual.  I like having fun and pride myself on not stressing over things because life is too short.  Stress will only assist in making life shorter.  I like to joke a lot and use sarcasm whenever possible.  It's just who I am.  But there is another side to me.  A side I keep hidden for a reason.  Opposite my usually positive demeanor is a cold, calculating, straight to the point asshole.  That side of me is the truly emotionless side. Growing up in my environment, I had to develop a "I don't give a fuck" attitude to gain respect.  I learned to tweak that so I could be respected and approachable.  Problem is, what people experience today is a very toned down version of that asshole that I keep hidden inside of me.  With all of the challenges I am starting to face in life with work and family, it is getting harder and harder to keep him at bay.  He almost got out at work Sunday.  Luckily I caught it before it was too late.  I don't want people that I like to have to deal with the something I'm hiding.