Thursday, February 28, 2013

WTF Moment - Am I Cheating?

This entry helps to show why I am past the point of sanity.  I really professional help to deal with the stuff I encounter daily.  Last night after I returned from my dinner with friends, my wife decided she wanted to talk to me.  She came and sat in the room and wrapped herself in a blanket.  She proceeded to strike up a conversation about various topics.  While talking she asked me, "are you cheating?"  WTF?! Who does that?  What was she expecting for an answer??  Now don't get me wrong. I have cheated in the past.  I thought we had gotten past all that but apparently she refuses to let go.  I try to make sure I mention the names of females I work with as well as their life statuses (married, dating, kids) to ease my wife's mind.  I am starting to think there is nothing I can do to help calm her self inflicted paranoia.

Can I Get a Little Me Time?

Yesterday I went out with some co-workers to dinner.  We had been planning it for weeks and I am sure I mentioned it to my wife on more than one occasion.  Low and behold, when I left the house I immediately got a text message "Where are you going?"  I responded stating I was going to dinner with my associates but did not know the destination yet.  Later in the evening I got another text message asking where were we and could my wife and kids join us.  I did not reply to that message.  Still later was when the real drama started.  She texted me asking how much longer would I be out because she was not feeling good.  Really?  Why is it that when I leave the house for a few hours to try and enjoy myself she starts to feel bad?  I don't remember feeling bad when she went to New Orleans when I told her not to.  I don't remember getting ill when she went on the vacation with her sister last summer when I told her not to.  It just amazes me how we act sometimes.  I think it is a shame that I can't get a little me time.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Houseguest

This post piggybacks off of the previous one.  With the Father-Daughter event planned for this weekend, my wife wanted the girls to look extra cute.  She decided to have another friend of the family come over and do their hair.  I'm cool with that.  The problem comes in the fact that the hairdresser is already at my house and the event is not until Saturday.  Why in the world is a twenty-something year old woman staying at my house?  Oh - did I mention she is sleeping in the bed with my wife?  It's not like they are lesbians or anything but who does that?  It's times like this when I realize all is not right in my world and sometimes there is nothing I can do to change that.

Am I a Good Parent?

Anyone who knows me will tell you that I consider myself to be a good parent.  I work two jobs to try and support my three little girls.  I try to teach them the ways of the world and that you have to work hard to get what you want out of life.  I want them to understand they don't have to depend on anyone but themselves for success.  With all that in mind, it's times like this when I wonder if I do enough.  This weekend is a Father-Daughter event in the community.  I completely forgot about the date and failed to request the day off from work.  My wife promised the girls they could attend so a friend of the family volunteered to take them.  Does missing out on an event such as this make me a bad parent?  I try to attend as many of their events as possible but sometimes work has to come first.  I hope they understand sometimes the choices we make in life are hard ones and sometimes people's feelings have to be hurt for the greater good.

Wheels on the Bus Run me Over

I found out some info from a colleague of mine.  I was informed there is a rumor floating around the office that I threw someone under the bus and got them in trouble.  I laughed as soon as I heard this.  I explained that first of all, I had no idea what he was talking about.  Secondly, how would I benefit from throwing this person under the bus?  I am just amazed at the maturity level of the people I work with.  Everyone wants to run tell dat.  I have a solution to all that foolishness. Looks like I am going to have to revert to the old me.  The one who walks in, does my job and leaves.  No time for playful banter and fellowshipping.  Strictly business in the office.  If you want to laugh and play, go to a daycare.  I don't have time to throw people under the bus or get thrown there myself.

Doctor Visits

I haven't posted anything about Monday's doctor visit so I will include it with today's update.  I had to go have  bone scan done Monday to try and determine what might be causing the pain in my foot.  This entailed going to the facility at 830am.  I got there, registered, was given a "tracer" shot and told to come back in three hours for the actual exam.  When I got back, I spend 1.5 hours with my feet being examined by a machine.  The procedure was not too bad.  There were a couple of times I was concerned (like when the tech taped my ankles together to keep my from moving or when she asked if my right foot was experiencing pain because she didn't see anything on the left scan). Today was the follow up with the actual orthopedic.  He looked at the scans and agreed with the tech.  There was nothing wrong with the bones in my feet.  He current suggestion requires me to wear inserts in my shoes for 3-6 weeks and wearing a splint at night when I sleep.  If that does not help with the problem, then the next option is surgery.  I'm hoping we don't get to the surgery option.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Bitch Betta Have My Money

The IRS has finally decided to start accepting tax returns.  For a lot of people that means savings, home improvements and catching up on bills.  For others, it means living like Rick Ross and trying to blow money fast.  I'm trying to catch the nephew before he does the latter.  Based on my calculations, he owes me about $1200.  I have informed him that once he receives his tax refund, I need my money.  I don't care about his baby mama or anything else he has going on in his life right now.  Once those funds are available to him, bitch betta have my money.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

WTF - Real Life Nigga Moment

I was at work at my fast food job tonight and I experienced a unique situation.  I was joking with a couple of my co-workers about the potential for someone to want to fight or harm me.  I decided to misquote Lil Wayne's Duffle Bag Boy song and said "I ain't never ran from a nigga and I ain't about to start."  This quote caught the attention of an older Caucasian gentleman who works with us.  He looked at me and said, "I know I must have missed something in what you just said.  Can you repeat that for me?"  I politely repeated my statement.  The people who were within earshot cracked up laughing.  A few moments later it hit me that I may have just experienced a real life nigga moment.  I'm not too sure if he laughed because the statement was funny or if he simply took delight in the fact I used the word "nigga."  Who knows?

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Some Jokes Just Ain't Funny

As Valentine's Day 2013 comes to a close, I must post about the foolishness which just occurred.  I decided to run to the store and purchase a soda because I wanted something with some fizz to drink.  While at the store, I decided to purchase a candy bar for my wife.  I decided to get her "favorite" candy bar even though she had stopped eating them because the name of the candy bar reminded her of someone she did not like.  When I arrived home and gave her the candy bar, she looked at me and said, "thank you.  I actually asked Bob to get me one earlier.  He told me he would do it and mail it to me overnight."  Now, Bob is her best friend's husband.  Please tell me at what point in time was this supposed to be funny. It's times like that when I just walk off before I say something and truly hurt her feelings.  Some jokes just ain't funny.

Finally an Unselfish Act

Today is Valentine's Day 2013.  I am currently not feeling too much love but I wanted to talk about a gesture made by my wife earlier which showed that on rare occasions, she can be unselfish.  After my doctor's appointment this morning, I went by my job to let my manager know about required upcoming days off for follow up appointments.  We left the building and went to a local bakery.  I tried to get my wife to pick out an oversized cupcake for her V-Day gift.  She asked what was I going to get for our girls.  I told her I did not plan on getting them anything until my next payday.  She actually told me she would rather me get something for them than for her.  I could hardly believe it.  She actually thought about someone other than herself for a change.

Doctor's Visit - Still Looking for Answers

I went to see an orthopedic specialist today about the ongoing pain in my foot.  The nurse took some xrays and I discussed the problem with the doctor.  I ended up leaving his office in an ankle brace.  He was not able to determine what may be causing the problem but had a couple of ideas.  The next step in the process is to have a bone scan done at a medical facility and follow up with the orthopedic specialist in a week.  So at this point I am basically where I was when I started this process.  I keep trying and trying but I am unable to find out what is causing the pain and more importantly what can be done to get rid of it.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Can we have sex? Part 2

So that we have bypassed the text message part, I decided to go into the bedroom and talk with my wife.  We decided being intimate was a good idea at the time.  As we are laying in bed naked, I bumped my lip.  I currently have a sore on the inside of my lip.  I have no clue what caused it.  I made my wife aware of the sore because I did not want her to suck my lip and make the pain worse.  Her response was "What bitch you been kissing on?  Was it blah-blah-blah or blah-blah-blah?"  WTF?!? Really?  You just asked me if I had been kissing on 2 different females right before you and I are supposed to be having sex?  Only in my world does this type of foolishness happen.

Can we have sex?

This post addresses a major concern of mine as modern technology influences relationships and intimacy.  I was sitting at my desk today when I received a text message from my wife.
The message read "Can we have sex?"  This is one of those times I am at a crossroads with modern technology.  My was literally down the hall from me.  She could have stepped out of the bedroom and saw me.  Rather than coming to me, she sent me a text.  WTF?  At this point I replied, "I will think about it as soon as you answer this question.  Why are you texting me when we are 3 rooms apart?"  I never got a reply  to the question.  I am all for sending inticing pictures to your mate and suggestive text messages to spice things up.  I have a problem when you can't talk face to face with someone and everything is done through text messages, instagram and facebook.

Picture is Worth a 1000 words

A very close friend of mine moved away recently due to a job promotion.  I was happy for her advancement but saddened by the fact she had to go out of state to take advantage.  I asked her to send me a picture once she got settled of something unique to her new surroundings.  She sent me a picture of herself smiling.  I look at that picture every night.  The image of her smiling says more than any words know in the English language.  Seeing her smiling in her new environment lets me know she is safe; she is happy and she is going to excel at any task put in front of her.  I wish I could send her a picture which communicated those things to her.  Unfortunately, I don't think I can fake a smile to make it seem that way.  The truth would show on my face.  All is not well in my world but my world is my world.  You live and you learn.

WTF Moment - Overdraft Fees

I was talking with the nephew a couple of weeks ago about his financial situation because it still did not seem to be getting better.  This confused me because he has lived with us for over a year and does not contribute to the household financially.  Add to this the fact he no longer has a car and the plot thickens.  I asked him if we could look at his bank account to try and determine where money could be going.  OMG!  I wanted to beat the hell out of him when we pulled it up.  He had over $400 in overdraft fees in December alone.  WTF?  According to my calculations, an entire 2 week paycheck went strictly to covering overdraft fees to the bank.  I tried to provide him with other ways of checking and maintaining his money. He has got to do better.  He can't afford not to.

Real Friends

This post piggybacks off of the previous one about my truck and revisits one of my favorite topics.  My truck was out of commission for almost an entire week due to repairs.  I explained the situation to one of my closed friends before I actually went to the shop. She was nice enough to let me use her car while my truck was repaired.  When I say let me use her car, I mean she let me drive her car to and from work.  All I had to do was make sure she had a way to work and home each day.  Now that's what I call a real friend.  She sacrificed what she had to do for a few days so I could take care of my business.  Good thing is, she knows I would do the same for her.

No Extended Warranty

I had to take my truck to the shop on 2/2/13 due to an ongoing concern about my brakes. The brakes were not stopping as good as normal and the truck was starting to cut off when left idling for short periods of time.  The dealership called me on 2/4/13 and told me they discovered the cause of my issue.  My service specialist went on to tell me that it would cost $600 for the repair because that particular part was not covered by the extended warranty.  So my truck that I have had just over a year, put a $600 dent in my pocket.  Guess you can't put a price on safety.   And I guess you can't argue if there is no extended warranty.  

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Health Concerns

Upon the recommendation of my specialist, I went to see my GP about my foot.  He played touchy-feely with it and just like my therapist, felt the problem was not nerves or directly related to my diabetes.  He prescribed some pain medication and told me to follow up in a week.  The pain medicine did not help at all.  If fact, at one point, I think I experienced more pain that prior to the medicine.  I followed up with my GP a week later.  Based on my answers to his questions, he decided the best thing for me to do would be to see a specialist.  Great, this just keeps getting better.  All these various office visits just for a foot.  I hope we find a resolution soon.  I'm tired of walking around in pain.

WTF - Where Have I Been?

January 24, 2013.  I can't believe that is the date of my last post.  So much has happened in the last couple of weeks.  I don't know where to begin.  I'm currently asking myself, WTF?  Where have I been?  What have I been doing to keep me so occupied that I have not been able to make a single post.  Truth of the matter is - nothing.  I think I am hitting another lull in my life where I don't care too much about things.  I hate when I get this way.  Times like this, when the "fuck it" mentality takes over can go really good or really bad. I'm hoping for good because I can't afford the bad.